Friday, July 23, 2010
For Lauren, I think her brave face was this week. And today it was VERY clear. She wants so much to be big. She wants Jeff and I to always know that she can do it all, from feeding her brother, to combing her hair, to picking out her clothes.
So, today was the last day I was going to take her to school before the big riding-of-the-bus day on Monday. I walked her in and encouraged her to play with the other kids on the playground. She said no and then asked when they were going to blow the whistle. That all so familiar sound that we all know means LINE UP!! And then I looked at her face when she spoke, it was her brave face. But I knew that I had to leave. I had to let her have the time to be okay with me not there, so I kissed her goodbye. I walked around the corner and she continued to hover around the wall waiting for that familiar sound that would let her know it was time to go in. I watched her for the longest 4 minutes EVER!!! I got teary as I looked at her. She continued to hold onto her "brave face". Then finally the whistle blew and she bounced into line, with a look of relief.
She did it. . . I am so very proud of her this week. Even though I tell her, I am not sure she will ever understand how proud I am. Maybe that will come when she has her own kids that put on their "brave faces".
Monday, July 19, 2010
Kinder is not like that. I feel as if I went to Target, looked around for a nice person and asked them to come home and take care of my child. A person off the street. Having worked at a school I never appreciated the gravity of the trust placed in me by parents. It is a big deal that parents entrust their children to teachers/staff/schools for hours at a time. Lauren is my heart, she is part of me and one of my greatest treasures. I wish I understood this better for all the years I was in the school system. I don't know her teacher, I don't know that someone is looking out for just her. There is a quote that having a child is allowing your heart to live outside your body. There has never been a quote so true to my heart than this one right now.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
We have had a great summer so far. Next week my big girl starts Kinder.. . .I am trying not to think about it, so I have posted some of our summer fun which includes a trip to Indy, before/after pictures of our floor remodel (but the after pics don't do the floor justice), the trip to Phx while the floors were being put in and tons of silliness. Hope this finds you well! Oh & for some reason these pics are not "initializing" so if you want to see them all just click where it says "click here to view these pictures larger".